After recently visiting the doctors and being told I am showing signs of depersonalisation disorder I decided to photograph how it feels suffer from this.
‘Depersonalization disorder (DPD), also known as depersonalization/derealization disorder (DPDR), is a mental disorder in which the person has persistent or recurrent feelings of depersonalization or derealization. Depersonalization is described as feeling disconnected or detached from one’s self.’
For me the main symptom is feeling detached from one’s self as mentioned above and loosing grip of myself. I used motion blue within the photos to give the feeling of loosing myself, which I feel as a set of photographs work well in creating emotion. The photos themselves are very simple – using a black backdrop with a black top to create this feeling of simplicity. I did not wear make up which is something that I will rarely show people, which for me adds a feeling of venerability to the work.
Final Major Project Kirsty Powell 